Sunday, July 10, 2005

Paradox

Metamorphosis: Salvador Dali
An old one ...
..composed by moi in a cliche-ridden moment of angst..
...... and bad rhyming..

In this busy humdrum of life
We ignore the things mundane
We battle time to take control,
Yet insanity and chaos sustain.

In this raucous noise-filled world,
Conversations are but a creak,
The "Twang" of silence is unheard of,
Dialogue amongst souls is Greek.

In this temple of material wealth,
Idols are consecrated for fame,
Obeisance saved for the neon lights,
Obscurity for the flickering flame.

In this stage of scripted lines,
We act not with our heart,
Directed by the bright illusions,
We covet the measely part.

In this quest for money and power,
Rare is the pristine charm,
Of honest words and selfless acts,
Humanity in its purest form.

In the search for meaning and order,
We live our lives askew.
When peace of mind is all we crave,
With a caring soul or two.

Is the solution for an enriched life,
Investment in thoughts not things?
To spend the wealth of warmth and love
And all the joy it brings.

In this quest for elusive bliss
Someday we'll realize,
What we seek is within our souls,
We need just open our eyes.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Literally Speaking......


For a small midwestern college town, there are numerous cerebral attractions in Iowa city that justify its epithet: "Athens of the Midwest".

Attractions? Cerebral? Amidst the hog farms and corn fields?
Oh this naiive small towner! prone to hyperbole and self aggrandizing
- Has she even seen the outside world?

hmm true, the streets of Iowa city have probably not been laid out for red carpet events - no Pitts or Speilbergs have graced the city (atleast in my celebrity tracking memory) - though, Ashton Kutcher did go to UI for some time. But what really makes the place special is that despite its 'plain' settings, there is this liberal milieu that inculcates and encourages higher thought along with regular discussion and dissemination of ideas and cultures. In addition, you will find an academic, egalitarian sensibility that empasizes more on Free Lectures than Free market!

That said, it is no surprise that a number of distinguished luminaries have taken a pause from their busy itinerant schedules to share their thoughts by this quiet river town.

All hogwash? Don't buy it? Then check these out!

1) NY Times Write up
http://travel2.nytimes.com/mem/travel/article-page.html?res=9500E7D6143BF93AA35754C0A9629C8B63

2) University of Iowa, Writer's Workshop
http://www.uiowa.edu/~iww/faculty/index.html


3) University of Iowa, Distinguished Lectures
http://www.uiowa.edu/~lectures/past.html

Impressive is'nt it? (Somewhat atleast..)

Well the purpose of this blog is not to extol the virtues of IC (and justify my prolonged sojourn in the place ;) - it is rather an account of my brushes with some of these celebrities (only the alive ones, I am afraid). These names may not elicit the same reflexive responses in all - but the self professed bibliophile that I am - any announcement of these visitations is associated with glazed eyes, heart palpitations and a puddle of drool in my vicinity.

Here's a brief list of some that I can remember (be not fooled by my youthful appearance, I AM getting old and slightly dementic you see ;).

Live from Prairie Lights : Prairie Lights: one of the finest independent book shops in the country - its association/collaboration with the illustrious UI Writer's workshop make these book readings even more top notched. The atmosphere is warm, personal with a just few rows of chairs surrounding the visiting writers. The smell of Java wafting in the air, the book laden shelves enhancing the acoustics, the erudite patrons - it is paradise! The live event is usually broadcast on the local radio. Some of these authors, have had past associations with the workshop and sometimes supplement their book readings with personal anecdotes and musings about their stay in IC.
Here they are:

a) Bharati Mukherjee : http://www.geocities.com/Colosseum/Park/9801/bharati.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bharati_Mukherjee

Attended hers twice - once for Desirable Daughters and the next one during the promotional tour of its sequel "The Tree Bride". Had to stand through the first as the seats were all filled up :( There were a lot of usual questions about child marriage, caste system, arranged marriage etc. It continues to make me wonder if these books pander to the western notion of Indian society or are these are factors so intrinsic to our social fabric that one cannot tell a realistic story without alluding to them?

b) Manil Suri: http://www.manilsuri.com/biography.htm
A tenured mathematics professor reading his debut fiction? Interesting right? Was extremely articulate and had a great voice too! Got my autographed copy of "Death of Vishnu" and requested the part of "Jaiswal Aunty" if the book is ever made into a Bollywood film ;)

c) Suketu Mehta:http://www.suketumehta.com/
For someone who claims to be a "rootless cosmopolitan", Suketu Mehta had distinct traces of Gujrati accent in his speech. A dimunitive man, you just had to wait for him to read from his book "Maximum City" to understand why he was a finalist for Pullitzer.
Even managed to ask a couple of questions from the audience - if he ever has to defend his dual (or multiple) identities to those who doubt the authenticity of his experiences based on that(!)Chatted up with him later about living in Iowa City (while getting an autograph on a copy of India Abroad - they had done a cover story on him). He had stayed here for a couple of years and makes mention of that in his book as well.

d) Sanjay Nigam:http://cafeutne.org/motet/guest/motet?show+-uktTBR+-ilad+Literature.Utne_Book_Club+7

Another closeted writer - day job: Physician/researcher from Harvard med School (he is currently based in UCSD). Said he wrote the novel during his sleepless nights - hence the focus on insomnia in the book.The transplanted man was an interesting read though it tended to get cliche ridden/obvious/simplistic at times.

Some notable misses : VS Naipaul ( He cancelled after 9/11)
Amy Tan (I don't remember why I missed this one)
Rohinton Mistry (had some visa issues.... hmm if I remember correctly that is)

If you wonder at the preponderence of South Asian writers in this list (ok I concede - ALL of them) - that has a reason too. Most of these readings were during my initial few years in US when I was still coming into grasps with the immigrant experience (it is not so dramatic as it sounds). I had developed a strong fascination for South Asian authors in English (devoured everything from Amitava Ghosh to Zadie Smith). Imagine my excitement that I could actually hear them talk about their writings and experiences - FREE OF COST too!

hmm...WELL, this blog has already exceeded its conceptualized size. I will soon write another one about hearing Bill Clinton, Salman Rushdie, Mitch Albom, Steve Pinker, Frank Conroy, TC Boyles, John Irving, Art Speigelman and, recently Michael Cunningham, speak!!!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

'Summer'izing the points

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....... Summmmmmer tiiiiime - and the living is easy ..................

It has been summer for some time now - just that my laziness had allowed this blog to simmer in my head with no verbal outpourings - how is that for analogy eh? Well, the reason my topic has shifted to seasons is not 'coz my life in Iowa City is mostly spent in battling the everchanging climate (or am trying to stimulate a conversation), but that SUMMER is almost a verb here. The streets are bereft of those drunken hordes of clueless teenagers (under25-ers, whatever...) and the place is teeming with families doing activities that do not involve bar crawls or passing out on the streets. With the last melting snow, comes in this season of blossoming wild flowers, long lazy days, cool greenery and magnificent sunsets. Oh how I love this time of the year!!!!

Nothing portends summer in Iowa City like:
  1. Watermelons for sale at 49c/lb,
  2. The fountain at Ped Mall, teeming with dripping kids and vigilant parents,
  3. Farmer's Market on Saturdays: fresh produce and beautiful flowers,
  4. Friday night live music concerts (oooh! and dancing with the Salsa Band),
  5. River Fest Rides at the Hubbard park
  6. Downtown Iowa City Art Fair - Crafty!
  7. Late night open-air movies by the IMU river bank: Free Popcorn -Yoo Hoo!!!!
  8. Bunch of screaming desis in the Seville pool,
  9. Frisbee in the park
  10. Scooters and bikes in the streets
  11. Ice creams at Whitey's/Culver's or that cute little place in Tiffin,
  12. Canoeing/motor boat rides at Lake McBride,
  13. Morning/Nature walks along the Mormon Trek handcart trail,
  14. Barbecues and Eat outs
  15. Biking along the Iowa river corridor,
  16. Smell of freshly cut grass,
  17. Road Trips (sun roof pulled down and music blaring at full blast)!!!!!,
  18. Capris and coolers,
  19. Glorious sunset in Kent Park - till the fireflies arise in unison from the grassy meadows........,
  20. Strawberry smoothies and chilled margaritas,
  21. thayeer saadam with urga/hulli majjiges,
  22. Late evening tennis lessons for newbies on weekends (ref Sarita)
  23. Shakespeare Festival in the open air stage at City Park
  24. Jazz Festival in downtown: The three day soiree!
  25. Sidewalk sales

...... Wish it would all last forever!

...and then .... maybe it is more fun 'coz it does'nt !

Thursday, May 26, 2005

PhD travails 1

PhD travails

Source http://www.phdcomics.com/

Plans have Derailed.

PhD travails 2

PhD travails

source: www.phdcomics.com

Sooooo could be me :)

PhD travails 4

PhD travails

Source http://www.phdcomics.com/


AHA!! Maybe we could start a talk show - Jerry Springer/Dr. Phil Be prepared !

PhD travails 3

PhD travails

source: www.phdcomics.com

No doubt the degree is Doctor of Philosophy - we discover new philosophies for all our existential crises ;)

Perspectives

Perspectives

My belief in absolutes diminishes each day. Relativism, somehow, provides more room for maneuver than any universal societal standard can. Take my own example, daily emotional upheavals apart (Grad student life has enough drama believe me - Ektaa Kapoor are you listening?), life is pretty even keel. The responsibilities (if they can be called thus ;) are structured and daily choices are not dictated by compromises or servileness. I am doing something supposedly worthwhile and progressive. I can think of myself as an independent person whose life encompasses a supportive family, great friends, good opportunities and enriching experiences. Seems like I would be in an enviable position right? Good enough to stay thankful and contended would'nt you think?

But here's the paradox - the world around me does'nt think so! Surely a hedonistic lifestyle such as this cannot be fulfilling! One comment that is routinely thrown about by most well meaning and concerned folks (with a disapproving look and sympathetic tone) is "So when are you going to settle down?" Huh???? "Settle" meaning? Relegating to one place and growing roots (wow! look at those tertiary roots sprouting from my calves - now THAT would be unsettling!)Or getting married, having a bunch of kids and finding bliss in home and hearth (is'nt that a tad bit overrated?). True I am a student and in some ways my life has'nt really encountered a paradigm shift that people associate with adulthood. It does not mean though that it is not wrought with challenges and responsibilities - we have after all uprooted ourselves from our familiar environs and are trying to re-establish (and probably rediscover) our identities. Does'nt it sound adult enough?

Coming back to the original point (oh there is one) - what defines "being settled"? Is it measured by personal, rather universal milestones - like graduation, marriage, kids, more kids, no more kids ;) or is it a state of mind? Which one should I be striving for? "Both", would probably be a smart alecky answer esp. if you take it to mean as being in equilibrium with your surroundings. Why does my being happy in my current existence seem to be in conflict with societal norms? Especially since this state is not really detrimental to anyone else in the society?

One advantage with absolutes is that you can compare and contrast - happiness being such a subjective parameter - how would you know otherwise who has made it in this world and who has not. But really is that a valid, leave alone an accurate indicator? Whatever the rationale, does it not seem a little arbitrary that "settlement" or "happiness" (if they are analogous) are implicated from these so called "milestones". If only that was what it took to be at peace with oneself! The kicker is that because of these assumptions, instead of feeling at ease with my choices, I end up becoming more and more defensive about them ....... when I need not be. Or should I?

Webties Address (Pun intended ;)

Webties Address (Pun intended ;)

Yoo Hoo!

I finally succeeded in establishing my web ties! "Yeah yeah" you may say, " just like countless others - very original aren't you"! Before you target your derision or indifference to my humble conquest, I have to point out - I did have to battle out forces of nature to do this. Those forces being intrinsic of course - the primary one, the all-pervasive INDOLENCE. Secondarily, the desire to keep my private thoughts, well private. But in most of us there is the innate showman/woman who rallies forth "Cogito ergo sum"- I think therefore I am - and God forbid! humankind miss out on the wonderful thoughts that incubate in and eventually ferment out from this wonderful brain of mine. Guilty as charged of harboring these delusions of grandeur! The banality and depravity of my thoughts do become apparent to me from time to time (mostly from external sources) - some realism is left intact, thankfully!.

Being trained in scientific writing (which has no resemblance whatsoever to the science of writing), I am forced to follow a framework that had been instilled with great patience by my advisors (this being a euphemism for severe criticism and innumerable drafts). So now that I have established a "need" for this excercise, it is but natural that I progress (I use the term loosely here) to the review of literature....... which would involve ... i think other blogs.

The careful researcher that I am (hold that laugh!), I went ahead and surreptiously read through the verbose and diverse thoughts of my fellow bloggers. Most of them had either led/or were leading interesting lives, had solutions to world problems in hand (to think it would have remained undisclosed but not for blogs - such travesty I say!) or had closely examined and documented the intricacies of daily living. Now, my megalomania notwithstanding, I have been emphatically led to believe (by who else? - the overbearing external sources) that I have not developed the faculties for any of these. So this leaves me with the option of doing one thing that I probably do best - randomly throw out snippets of musings, anecdotes, trivia which inhabit the crowded and decrepit world of my mind and hope that some higher, more intelligent being would make sense of it. Maybe the data would feed into the equation which calculates the answer to life's biggest question (my ode to HHGTTG) or it may be that outlier that would skew the results further - who knows? As we say in the hinterland - ka jaani (what do I know)? There is deeper version of this statement too - ka jaani ka ? (what do I know what I do not know)

Mull over it .....or not.... :)